ok..... so..... i know i haven't written in a while. it's crazy!! my life completely consists of church, work, and school.... and that's about it. it's really sad that i don't have time to do anything else. it's not like all these things are bad by any means. they are all very beneficial, but i feel like my life has been taken over. i know... i know.... welcome to the real world, whitney!!! it's such a pain though!!
as i write this, i am laying on my bed watching a movie called "what a girl wants" and thinking to myself, what does a girl really want? considering that i am a girl, obviously... :), do i really know what i want?do i really know what i want 10 years from now? how about 5? or maybe even tomorrow? what about what i'm looking for in the perfect guy? what about my job? these things... they are important in the long-run, but what about now? is finding the right guy for me something that i need to make as a priority or just as an option at this time? i can't really say exactly what i'm officially going to do as my job because i'm going to school to be a pharmacy technician, but what if it doesn't work out? what am i going to do then. i know God has a plan for my life and that whatever happens is happening because it's already been pre-planned for my life. it's just crazy because i see a lot of my friends getting married and having kids and i can't help but think to myself, when is my turn going to come? will it ever come? i'm just really impatient and i know i need to work on it. so do i really need a guy to make me happy? no... not right now. would it be nice to have a guy that will be there when i need him... to hold me when i'm scared or sad.... to hold my hand in public...... to tell me i'm beautiful when i'm in sweats and no make-up...... yeah.... it would be nice..... but it doesn't look like it's going to be happening any time soon. and maybe that's a good thing..... it just makes me trust God more and completely depend on Him for everything i need.
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